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Monday, February 14, 2011

FUCK

So its' been a while since my last post since nothing's really happened until recently. So far my sister got involved with a guy she shouldn't have, it went out of control but we got hte guy to leave her alone. In the commotion my mom has put hte blame on my dad for no apparent reason just because she feels like it. Now if he comes to the house she might calls the cops on him, just because he's being a parent. She pretty much told him that he wasn't a good influence on me an my siblings which is bull shit!! He actually treats us like his kids, she throws us around like slaves and doesn't even make a decent conversation with us. So what does she do after that? She blocks every single fucking number that can be linked to my dad or anyone else that she thinks might be bad for me health. I can't get in contact with him only through facebook. I'm stressed out all the fucking time because i feel caged here and i'm slowly suffercating in this hell hole. I can't take it here, my little sister is now brain washed an is on my moms side because she now buys her stuff an leaves me out in the cold. The only person I can talk to is my brother an his girlfreind but they're moving out this week because they can't take it here either. I feel like i'm going to be left alone here, I don't know what to do anymore. How can i escape?

Monday, January 17, 2011

Soooo

It's been however long since I've been cheated on and well I'm better. I've finally moved on, don't have feelings for that jerk anymore and I look forward to whoever comes into my life next. He on the other hand is still with that girl he cheated on me with, I still see him at school and he hides from me whenever I see him. Seeing him like this makes me feel sooo much better since I did nothing wrong so why should I be the one that feels bad about it, soooo yeah I'm happy he feels guilty and is hiding from me. :) maybe he'll learn and not do this in the future, but he's a guy so I don't think that'll happen.

Thursday, December 30, 2010

Yeah this sucks

I'm going through a break up and i'm misrable........It all started with a phonecall, my now ex's use to be friend called me saying he's fooling around with another girl. So right away I believe him since for the past few days before this happened he's been very distant with me so it made sense, right? WRONG!! I confront him with my information and he says that he's lying he would never cheat on me. We got into a fight and i ended it between us. Days later i find out that he and his friend got into a huge fight over something stupid so he thought that he could get revenge by breaking us up. Even knowing this i feel it's for the best because he start using drugs when we were together and started to yell at me soo i guess moving on is the best thing for me right now, eventhough i do feel depressed. :(